[Chinese BL novel] 霸总穿成弃夫之后[穿书] / Big boss transmigrating into abandoned husband

The first reading of this novel should be dated more than a year ago, who knows maybe a year and a half. But it normal circumstances having a big gap between finishing and now looking at it was never a problem before for me to remember at least something about the novel that I read. I usually have some point that helps me to unravel some elements or plot points that help me have an impression. Funnily, it didn't happen here. My mind was totally black. Even more weird that I kept in notes that it was an okay novel, but I CAN'T remember a thing! So I decided to look at it again and started re-reading and again the weird feeling, while I'm reading I see events and characters and I understand that - huh, I remember I've read about this. BUT! If you ask me to think what will happen next, I can't do it, as if there's not only a veil, but a whole iron door blocking my mind. What a weird feeling. Thus I'm reading and decided to keep the review down to let me nto forget what happened here.

Ji Tingsen travels to a book and becomes a cannon fodder, in previous life he was a helm of a Ji Group, but he was defeated by incurable desease. He never thought that he'd get a second chance and with a healthy body can start a new life. But he was in a predicament, he traveled at a pretty risky timing, when the original Ji Tingsen was about to dye his husband's head top green. Ji Tingsen ruled out from the situation acting a bit like a flower that spent so much time and love on his husband, but never got a response and finally he claimed to give up on this love. With so many ghosts that original JT created his husband Qin Zhen was simply disgusted, but still he didn't touch JT or punish him. The original owner and his marriage should have set off the protagonist of this book and his healthy and loving relationship, on the contrary original JT was married by contract to Qin Zhen but loved him crazily, yet never got a response, he was more like a joke and never got love. Original JT was also really jealous of his brother, in a weird way, but he had a reason, as an adult he found out that he was not a biological child of his parents and everything he thought was close never belonged to him, with this trauma original JT should have obstructed protagonist brother Ji Mingrui in everything and in the end ended up badly, thrown out of marriage, blocked in entertainment circle and having a sad ending. JT was too different from this image and aspirations. JT wo traveled had two brothers, one brother had an accident and was sent to prison by their cheating father, JT wanted to come back but it was too late to do anything, although he took the helm of the Ji family, he still fell ill and the only person left was his younger brother, thus he could never hurt anyone who would remind him of his younger siblings. There is a thing after he travels where he has seizures when he goes against original settings, but they at first appear to make JT realize that his plastic husband can ease his pain, so he took few things from him, which he later wrote off as needing small things to slowly part with love, which basically served as a link to develop Qin Zhen's feelings for his spouse.

Unlike previous life Ji Tingsen found fun in acting, so he seriously took on this job and he followed his own path, without obstructing the path of his younger brother to the stardom.

The development of feelings started from Ji Tingsen sticking to what he said and never bothered Qin Zhen like the original, but the change in temperament and actions instead made Qin Zhen take a note of this husband. With few things happening here and there he started to develop feelings. Of course at first he found it impossible and strange, since the original JT left his own shadow, but somehow he could distinguish between the two, the previous (things like photos) always made him feel disgust even after so much time, but looking at the new JT (again photos included) he felt the surge.

But developing relationship from here isn't that simple. From Qin Zhen's side he had a shadow hovering, but he later had to come to terms with himself and think of ways to build the relationship, yet sometimes he delayed himself, since he acted a bit like a brat and JT also treated him like one, since he always remembered that he was a bit older than Qin Zhen.

From another point love and physical relationships were a hurdle for JT for a reason, his disgust originated in seeing his father cheat when he was still a young child, since then he couldn't get rid off it and it left him a psychological shadow. I think I partially remember why I said it was okay, because this relationship is like love and cure. But love and cure basically come slowly. At first JT considered their relationship more like friends and brothers, when he finally realized that QZ wasn't like that he was stiff and tried to avoid contact as much as possible, which led to QZ slowly invading the privacy of JT. Learning of JT's physical reaction he consulted with a specialist that consulted JT (more like insisted on everything, because how can he not be worried about his Brother Sen) and found out how to deal with it, so basically they made the progress really slow to make JT adapt. And it wasn't like therapy, JT is a pretty prideful person and he never wanted others to figure out his weaknesses, so both kind of silently agreed that QZ makes a move, but stops at the critical moment and makes excuses for him stopping, while JT slowly replaces bad emotions about intimacy with QZ. JT basically did not completely figured things out before he found out the truth. he just felt that QZ has a sense of measure, but later found out that QZ knew. Well, isn't it touching that the other person cares about your mental state so much.

Oh yeah, the last part is a bit of like family drama and story of the book. Getting back to JT finding out he's not biological, he's actuallu a part of the Lie family, which also appears in the book. He was "lost" ong ago, but basically it was a malicious plan by the second aunt in the family, so her son will inherit the family. When JT recognized the relatives he confessed liking acting and not changing his name, everyone was happy, the only one unhappy was this very aunt of course. Also there is a link person between past of JT and present, it's two brothers from the Gu family. JT's friend from the past is called Gu Xing, he also helped to look after his brother who was sent to prison and later was released, but didn't want to go back to Ji house, he also was accompanying JT a lot in the hospital and Gu Xing often mentioned his brother, as it turned out to be that in this book he met Gu Xing's brother, who became for JT a person and a link between past and present. Oh yeah, since this story has elements of entertainment circle we also get a bit this and that between himself and Ji Mingrui, because they filmed together, so he had to announce their relationship later on after a scandal broke out. As for his relationship with Qin Zhen it was revealed quite early and QZ wasn't against it, since he never wanted to separate from JT after he realized his feelings.

When I look back at it, it has a mix of things actually, bits and pieces. But in general, what I think got the first passing for me is that when they realized their feelings and had to deal with aftermath of what JT had to go through in the past, Qin Zhen was actually quite patient and measured.

RATE: 3,75/5. Okay one :3 But the ending is rushed and underwhelming and it felt a bit too much tbh.