Both are met with an accident and both are reborn. Sui Yan thinks he will never care for Jiang Xiubai again, but those feelings are more than him. But because the rebirth time is earlier than they met in previous life he has a chance to see younger Jiang Xiubai, but he was shocked with what he saw, it felt like he missed many of the things his Xiuxiu never told him about.
Jiang Xiubai was facing a dilemma if he should stay away from Sui Yan and let him have the life he wants or give them a second chance, because he truly loves his husband.
Everything starts with misunderstanding of each other, even if you love each other so deeply.
It's a rebirth story and also a second chance for both characters. They actually love each other deeply, but some things that left unspoken made it possible to misunderstand where each person comes from.
It becomes evident from first chapters, for example, Sui Yan talks with his friends that he had fights with his husband, but Jiang Xiubai talks how they never had fights. It already directs you into thinking that both viewed their life together a bit different and they did not fully understand the motivation behind the person. Especially in case of Jiang Xiubai, because he's the "sickly wife".
As an example, Sui Yan thinks that Jiang Xiubai thinks his career is more important, but Jiang Xiubai was actually hidden for quite some time before his contract expired and he had a chance to act. He was lulled into company that promised acting, but they debuted him as singer. Later he refused the unspoken rules and was hidden and his chance was given to another member who kissed asses of everyone until they were shiny. Jiang Xiubai had several very rare opportunities, but the return of him home was actually when he rushed shooting and came back earlier than planned because he wanted to go on promised vacation.
It's the case where both are at fault in problems that arise. Sui Yan was quite in love with Xiubai, but Xiubai did not share the crucial information like his abuse in uncle's house, why he doesn't talk much and looks cold to others, when he is simply taciturn. Sui Yan also did not explore much of this. Which resulted to him being sad or aggrieved at something that was perfectly fine for Xiubai because he did not see anything wrong, because of how he grew up.
The story pretty much reminded me of "The foolish gong was reborn" where top also had some misunderstandings with his husband during their marriage, but he is the loving and sunny person of the two.
Sui Yan is the beaming light, he is very cute and loving. Although he is like that only towards Xiuxiu, I don't know it was deeply touching the way he liked his husband and tolerated many things and later tried to fix his mistakes.
Outsiders are intimidated by Sui Yan's cold appearance and prominent family background. Only he knows that Sui Yan is actually quite cute in private. Not only is he gentle and considerate, but he is also loyal and responsible in his relationships. Except for being too persistent and childish in some aspects, he has almost all good qualities.
While Sui Yan wasn't the only one working on the marriage, Xiubai also tried to see what was wrong, how things could get better. Because it was evident to him that Sui Yan was reborn, he caught him quite early, but he was entangled if he should confess that he is reborn too, that he is Sui Yan's 28yo husband in the body of 22yo Xiuxiu. He did not know if those words said by Sui Yan were just angry words or heartfelt feelings. But to him Sui Yan is the only person who treated him well and even if he's lost to why he was reborn because he failed Sui Yan so much, but in this damned life where everything seemed dark Sui Yan was his light he wanted to hold strongly in his hands.
But not to make things too dark, because Sui Yan is the main source of joy, there is a lot of humor that is connected to him and his behavior. Just a textual example.
"Jiang Huan, come here and smell it to see if it smells good."Sui Yan carefully held up the suit and sniffed it curiously, his eyes shining darkly: "It smells a little like perfume."Jiang Huan was full of suspicion, so he leaned forward to smell it, and his doubts became even stronger. Isn't this the most traditional smell of laundry detergent?"Yeah, it smells pretty good." He agreed perfunctorily.Sui Yan raised his hand and touched the fabric of the suit: "He washed this for me personally.""Him?" Jiang Huan sensitively smelled something wrong.What is the relationship between the person who sent the clothes and Sui Yan?"Find a sealed bag. I want to put it away." Sui Yan treated it as a treasure: "Lock it in the safe."Jiang Huan curled his lips slightly and found a receipt in his pocket: "Nice International Laundry...""Mr. Sui, does the person you are talking about work in a laundry shop?"The warmth on Sui Yan's face faded a little.
After all Xiubai even himself admits that he lacks any fun, he is a quiet and in the eyes of many might even sound like a boring person and he is puzzled at why Sui Yan likes him so much. As to what he finds in Xiubai that is worth the liking (which is honestly so sad, it just shows how unconfident Xiubai is in himself as a person).
"Jiang Xiubai." Sui Yan bent his long legs slightly, half lying on the sofa and smiled: "I don't know if you can understand this feeling. When you like someone, your heart is uncontrollable. As long as he stands there, you want to treat him well with all your heart, without caring about gains and losses and consequences. I think this feeling is the true meaning of love, and it is the rarest thing in love. If a person has never experienced this feeling in his life, and has to consider every bit of love, then it is too boring."
I may not have finished this novel, but I really wanted to share it right now, because not many novels feel so heartfelt and nice, that they have both a serious and humorous sides about them. Even two people who actually love each other dearly may go through miscommunication, not fully understanding the other person, but it doesn't make them love each other less. Both work to save the feelings they cherish so much when they're given the chance.
And few words about the characters and where they come from. As you can guess Jiang Xiubai had a rough childhood, with both parents gone he was living with his uncle and something happened. Not reaching the age Xiubai insist on transferring to orphanage. This childhood experience basically shaped his outlook on the world. Later he joins entertainment circle, because he had memories of his mother performing and giving up her dreams. But his company which promised acting debutes him with a group. They are quite tepid. Later he refused unspoken rules and was hidden before expiration date of his contract, then he flies alone with his agent and then his career took off. He truly likes acting, but in new life was ready to give it up, since he already achieved success he was dreaming about. Sui Yan comes from a wealthy family, above him are two scheming uncles and a grandfather with whom he had a strained relationship. Like Xiubai he is an orphan too. But he is quite positive and active person. In this life he could avoid many obstacles from his uncles and repair the relationship between himself and his grandfather.
In the span of the novel Xiubai still continues his career but with changes, like Sui Yan had a lot to do with it.
I felt good about it, thus I thought I'd post about it. Although I could include it in short reviews post, but I truly liked the style and the writing of it to be posting separately.
PS: Also this author wrote 联姻后我成了大佬的白月光 I reviewed earlier.
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